I feel like by the time you come to college you know yourself somewhat. also, i believe that in college you find yourself… or atleast you try to. u explore new things, you take risks, you let loose… all that. and for a while i just thought that i was evolving all the while trying on different “me’s” until i found the one that fit best.
but recently i realized ive just been doing the same thing as always. which is, going through life phases. i have gone through fashion styles, hairstyles, sexuality labels, relationships, interests, and a whole lot of other things. i have had a couple of life changing experiences. i have become a mother.
now that I am a senior at Howard I am beginning to realize that the journey to finding myself has only just begun. Lately I’ve realized that I must open up and assess things I haven’t thought about in years. I also had to re evaluate some things i though about myself. In some ways i am still the same confused little girl i came here as. in some ways i’m much wiser. in other ways im even more confused and lost.
*sigh* well i guess it’s not all bad. i needed to realize that nothing is ever going to be set in stone. i believe that in life the only constant is change… so i realize that if i am forever changing and so is the world, i will never completely know myself.
i just have to be open to growth and learn from my experiences. i have to trust myself to make the right choices and trust that i will forgive myself if and when i don’t.
i am excited to be nearing the end of my undergrad career. i am even more excited to be a new mother to my beautiful daughter, Somnia Ray Madison Draper. I am thankful for all the blessings i’ve received and equally as thankful for all the struggles ive had to go through to get to where i am today.
i know that i will make it through. i hope to help others out as much as possible and as often as possible. im also hoping that i wont lose sight of my goals, and more importantly, that i wont lose my motivation. for the rest of you out there: keep your head up.
#vickysmileyface
